Making progress towards a personal goal
Even if we don't attain it yet
Is enough to keep us going
Because it generates payback
Is it also necessary?
Yes, if happiness is necessary
And if we can't find happiness
Unless we are progressing,
Growing, going goalward
It's all we can ask of ourselves
Yet it's enough
Samsara -- it's all there is
Yet it's enough --
It's Nirvana too
At least potentially
(Why not actually?)
If it is in actuality
Then it's perfect
If life's perfect, why act?
Why grow, why have goals, why move?
It's perfect in that
It's perfect once things are set in motion
And it allows us relative free will up until then
The only decisions
Where we might excercise freedom
Are those where we consciously
Weigh alternatives and factors --
Otherwise the deciding is done for us
Which is certainly not free will
But, even when we might think
That we are acting freely
We arrive at our decision
Through the give and take
Of various factors
Which may or may not be
But the dynamic of that arrival
Must of necessity be logical
And thus deterministic
Once set in motion
Decision results are "perfect" --
But even during the deciding
Perfection is in effect
Why have even the illusion of free will?
So we'll feel free,
So we'll grow and advance,
As long as we don't see it's an illusion?
Why grow and advance?
To eventually be company
For the Great Designer?
Is that all?
Is happiness necessary?
No, it's only the soul's most vocal goal
Is progress required for us to be happy?
No, we can have (shallow) joy
(Wallowing) in a (stagnant) no-growth life
But I picture a happy couple,
Unpretentious, maybe farmers
In a third world country --
They do not change nor seek to change (grow)
Yet remain happy
Through their day-to-day routine
(E.g., work, raising their children)
Is the key that they need no growth
Because they are already in tune?
And not even consciously...
Is growth then return to being in tune?
Is distance from being in tune then
Due to an illusion of imperfection
That we have to unlearn?
(A forgetting of perfection has occurred)
The distance is not from perfection
But from constant awareness of
The perfection that is always there
In-tune-ness, distance from ongoing action
Maximizing long-term benefit
(Minimize that distance, delta, error)
Ongoing approximation to Big Self (via being good)
May not be in awareness
Quality of instant karma
May not be in awareness
How can we separate
From "instant karma" feedback?
Obvious is physical, direct --
Karma is logical, trend within direct (derivative?)
Awareness of what constitutes benefit
What constitutes maximal long-term benefit?
Is it determined?
Perhaps we can revise
Our definitions of benefit
As time goes by,
Even though there is a
Maximal path at all times?
We can evaluate our performance
Against our idea of
Maximal benefit action,
But perhaps this only approximates
The "actual" evaluation,
Performed by the ultimate arbiter (judge),
The Big Self
Is still just reaction --
How do we generate, discover
Plans for action rather than reaction?
(Synthesis rather than analysis)
But awareness is not necessary
For the happy couple --
They live the perfection,
Their every act is in tune
We need awareness first
Because we are creatures of intellect;
If we can eventually become
Constantly aware so that
Each of our conscious acts is in tune,
Then we can phase out forced awareness
As doing in tune becomes automatic
But, isn't all doing perfect, in tune?
Yes and no
Yes, all doing is perfect absolutely
But can be relatively imperfect
(Relative to one's standards,
Goals, expectations, perceptions)
If one judges
(Measures against some criterion),
An intellectual process
What about how happy or unhappy one is made
Due either to self- or outside input, actions...
Even with no intellectualizing?
One can simply react naturally
To events, good or bad --
Doings that have negative or neutral impact
Would hardly be called perfect
One related thought,
If not necessarily the whole answer,
Is that it is for us to see
The perfection in what might appear less than perfect;
For example, finding the lesson
In something that happens
Which we at first might
What is doing in tune?
Is there anything but?
Is it that we are consciously doing
That opens the door
For doing out of tune,
Or at least the appearance of such to us?
And/or that we are
The results of doing
Or of inputs in general?
Again, at least relative out-of-tuneness is allowed
If we judge events against
Our standards, expectations, etc.